The Mania

Too many things to do is good sometimes. So other times, however, it's bad! Simple, yes? No. I am pressured. I will be pressured till the end of the semester and then, I will miss being pressurd. It's really sad. Why cant there be something in the middle...like being a part-timer at uni or something? Taking things slow? Now, of course dad wont allow that! I have to get through my studies and this and that. That's what life's all about.
I just need to take a deeeeeep breath and tell myself that everything is going to go just as planned. I will do the work on time. I will go to classes early morning because it's important. I will write my essays even if I dont want to. And so on. Get through the semester. It's sad, though, because if only I had a little time to breathe it would have been "living the semester" which, in my perspective, is a much better thing to do that just waiting for the semester to stop being hectic. Or to end!
I am happy. I am not only convinced that I am happy, but I am happy. Why am I happy? It's becuase I like being happy, it makes me smile! Gogo says: I belive in god, the thought makes me smile. Now, I believe in happiness because the thought of having a good thing in life makes me smile.
A friend says happy people are stupid people who want to convince themselves that it will be OK. They are people who want to be comfortable, and that's it.
I might be stupid...I'm not sure. One thing I know, though, is that I am only satisfied with what I am, and what I become, and how I change. I am not satisfied with so many things the world brings. At least, though, I am satisfied with the energy inside of me.
Mmeh, I'm boring.