That 70s Life
I am strange.
I have a crush on a proffesor. It's not like he's in his 20s either, he's old. The thing is, though, how will I ever find someone with a mindset like that one who is not a 70s person.
I just so happen to be born in the wrong generation, or with a wrong mindset.
Whatever the group is, I never belong. I sometimes belong to random people on their own, never to a group. It makes me sad sometimes, even though I got used to it.
If people could be categorized;
The geeks: I am very geeky, still they are oblivious to so many things I consider facts of life.
The artists: I am always considered too "something" to be an artists...too optimistic, or too conservative, or too happy. Artists have to appreciate melancholy, something I am not good at.
The fundies and the co: obviously, I dont have what it takes.
and it goes on and on with all kind of different groups. Always too something to belong,
Never lonely, though. Sometimes alone, but never lonely.
Maybe I am too much like my parents, I feel like I belong to the 70s kids more than I belong here. I have more interesting conversations with my parents, and their friends than I have with my very own friends. It's strange.
Time machine would have helped.
Maybe at one point, I will quit the belonging idea and just start to exist around the group that is closest, if any. And maybe I will just continue having that crush on the professor for being a 70s kid, the personification of a man that does not and will not exist today. Even his son is so completely different from him, he doesnt have 1% of the imagination his father has.
Mneh.
4 comments:
I agree, a 70's boy is a little old for you. But you can continue to have your crush, and interest in the 70's, and if possible extend it to the 60's and 50's. There is much to learn there, in Egypt and worldwide.
And for someone who can have interesting conversations with her parents, you are one of a few. May be your dad should buy that car for you (although he shouldn't allow you to drive it in Cairo !).
Well I can not agree with you more about not belonging to a certain group and belive it that it is a good thing.
Havign a strange set of ideas and beliefs is never a bad thing and believe me you would meet the other pair that matchs your very own weird ones. Just hang in there.
Gee, if my dad is supposed to have bought me a car this October...that tells you something about how slow I am in learning this driving shit, M. Hawari.
And S, I have nothing but the hanging in :] I like it here :D
I used to teach for a living. High school, adults and French students at the Sorbonne. In all of these cases, whether my students were lawyers who were older than I am, high school girls or Masters students, there was always a bit of seduction in the process of imparting thoughts, or a language, onto them.
To be a good teacher, your students must lust after your words, yearn for your prose. This is not to say that my lesson plans were always sexy; my lectures did not always tickle the ear like a lustful whisper; and I was not always in top form. But it's true that I tried my best to exude a certain boyish and bookish charm as much as possible.
And in the end, the result is that women often find me much attractive in the classroom than out...
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