Ahhhh!

At first, I thought to myself, why am I writing about a character I only know from afar? How will I understand this character and write in her voice. Suddenly, I realized that this character lives inside me. This character is a part of me, except taken to its extreme.
It's shocking in the most unpleasant ways. It's as, or could be more, unpleasant than theorizing Blue Velvet, Oedipus Complex, and the Phallic Function in Lacan, even!
Being stuck between Freud, and Psychoanalytic method and playwriting...all I can think of is, what are the motives of this character, why did this person do that, and not the other thing? What is the reason behind it, and how does it relate to the realization of the self as being separate from the outside world, Narcissism.
My head will explode. Theories, characters, calm down please!